I believe that love is a powerful thing. I believe that God has perfect love for us, and I believe that I have been sent here to show people that love… or at least to try as hard as I can. But in this past week, I have felt more love from the people that we have been building relationships with. I think I’m beginning to realize what it is like to really love people for Christ. It’s not about checking off this good thing that I did. It’s about knowing the people here… knowing their pain, knowing their life and being a part of that. I’m not better than them. In many ways they are just like me- trying to find hope to keep them going. At training camp, God really spoke to me about his love. For a long time, I have been searching for love in other places. I have been trying to figure out where my life is going. I let my head get away from my heart. I was in want.. I thought I would be happy if I was skinnier. I thought I would be happy as soon as I could figure out my major and who I was going to be. I thought I would be happy as soon as I knew who I was going to be with. The whole time God was just telling me to turn to him. He is the “One”, the one who can make me happy and the one who I will be with for the rest of my life. No one will ever love me like he does. Last week God really spoke beauty into my life.
Now, I want to help the people that God puts into my life help feel that love that really set me free from so much worry and gave me an unbelievable hope for the future. Already, I have met a girl named Gloria who lives with her younger sister and mother. She goes to the Ithemba Afterschool center that I work at every day. The first day there we danced with each other and had a blast. She told me a little about herself, and I can’t wait to see where that relationship will go. There’s something special about her.
There’s no doubt in my heart that this is where I am supposed to be right now. I know God is working in mighty ways, and maybe, just maybe I will be blessed enough to be a part of his heart for Jeffreys Bay. I know that the greatest thing that I can do for him is love… and I plan to do that with all of my heart!
P.S. MSU email account system is down at the moment until probably tomorrow. So unfortunately, my hour that I get for communication will not be useful. So don’t be hurt that I didn’t email you. I promise I would if I could! I will be on again in 2 weeks to try to email again. I love and miss you all!
