Boasting

     2 Corinthians 12:9-10    But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  Therefore I will  boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s poewr may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.  For when I am weak, then I am strong.

         Over the past two years, since I have been at Clemson I have been shown ALL of my weaknesses.  Growing up in a christian home and going to a regular highschool I got into a place of thinking that I had everything together and could handle my life by myself.  I got into a place where I wasn’t necessarily prideful about my life but I didn’t ever really have to rely on God and his power but could just trust that I could get through whatever by myself.

       Freshmen year was a real surprise when I found out that even though I had excelled in highschool (as did everrrryone else) my intelligence wasn’t quite as stunning compared to everyone else here and I struggled with feeling completely insufficient in basically everything I did since I couldn’t seem to succeed at ANYTHING I tried anymore.  By the end of the year I was basically in danger of losing my scholarship which waived a ton of money so that I could go here. It was basically the most disappointing I felt I had ever been and it was a real struggle to see why I had to go through that.

    I finally did get to a point where I could see that God was humbling me and showing me that I was not enough. I remember listening to “More than Enough” about a million times, a song saying that all of God is more than enough for every need I will ever have.    I still get into patterns where I rely on myself way too much and forget that I can’t do anything well without God but I am seeing things from the other side now and I can say that I am thankful for that trial last year. I now can sooooometimes see things the way God does in His big picture and boast about my weaknesses because those are the times when I see how strong He can be for me.