I Am Running

 

This has become my prayer especially in the past week. God has been revealing himself to me in so many ways. For the past year of my life, I have been trying to figure everything out for myself– my future plans and all that that includes. It threw me into a huge pit of brokenness that I had a hard time getting out of. Being here in Africa, I have found how important surrender is. Life is so much easier when I surrender all that I am and all that I want to be to God. He’s just waiting for me saying, “I have so much more for you.” I can just see Him with arms open waiting for me to turn around and run.

 

I so I have decided to take off running. There’s nothing wrong with sprinting, and it’s taken me so long because I have had a lack of trust, trust that God’s plans are better than my own. Also, I’ve always viewed surrender as something that has to happen in one huge moment, and then if my worry comes back, I beat myself up for it. But Becca said one night during teaching last week that Surrender is an every day decision. And I have found that to be so true. This week I have been conciously trying to surrender my plans for my future and my worry to God every day before I even get started, and it has been amazing. I feel such a peace. I still have no clue what the future holds exactly, but I do know who holds it. It is so freeing. I look back and ask myself “What took you so long?”

 

One morning this week God gave me a huge encouragement during my quiet time:

1 John 3:20– God is greater than our feelings.

 

So when I’m feeling that I’m horrible for not being able to let go of something I’m trying to surrender and when I don’t feel like I’m good enough to do great works for God, He is bigger than all of that. There’s nothing I can do or think to stop the plans that he has for me.

 

What freedom there is in surrender…